Diary No. 5

Hey there hi there ho there! another week has flown by, and honestly for me it has been a blur What did I do Monday? What did I do Tuesday? Why do I feel like nothing got done? Story of my life honestly!

this week has been good. I still feel kind of in a funk, like I can’t focus and that my days aren’t as productive as I want them to be. I was thinking about it this evening, and I think perhaps I have found the reason. I have felt like this for about a month…coincidentally the same amount of time I’ve been back on social media…hmmm.

obviously there are other contributing factors to feeling unproductive. Such as extra early morning wake ups, days my babies need me more, surprise errands, etc… However I think being on my phone more plays a huge part. Knowing this and seeing the difference of how I feel when I don’t use my phone a lot vs when I do motivates me to stick to the boundaries I’ve set for myself even more and replace time that I would spend mindlessly scrolling, doing something else.

This week I have felt extra creative and excited about my creative projects (my blog, my ministry page, a writing project I’m sharing in my newsletter on Monday, another project I’m working on). I am just SO enjoying all of the things I allow myself to work on during the week. It may only be during nap times 3 days a week, but it is so much fun. Sometimes I feel guilty for doing things I enjoy instead of being “productive,” but I have to remember that being a full time mom is very mentally and emotionally exhausting, and doing things I enjoy makes me a better mom before and after those nap times.

the boys had their 15 month check up this week and we are all happy to report healthy boys. I cannot believe they are growing so fast. It feels like they are doing something new everyday, and it is so exciting. But, time, slow down okay? I don’t know if I’ll ever get to watch another baby of mine grow, I’m trying to soak in every minute with these two. 🤍 We also officially weaned off of breastfeeding this week. It was emotional, but definitely time. They didn’t even when we skipped our bedtime feeding, so I knew it was without a doubt time! I’m so thankful for 15 months of nursing and bonding with my boys!

nothing else noteworthy has happened this week, so enjoy a little photo recap of the past few days! 🤍